is phail

There is a certain aspect to my life that is nothing but one word - PHAIL.

God knows I gave it my best shot, my all and my everything, in fact, a million percent. However these things are like the stock market, it's not about how much you invest, if it's not meant to be, it will come all crashing down on you. You get hit worse, if you have invested more.

It's painful to know that somethings, you just can't earn from hard work. Especially if it's something you want so very badly.

So now let's start clearing up the mess from my last attempt, because it's going to take awhile. Persistence and perseverance doesn't always apply.

Baby - Justin Bieber

A dedication: Baby - Justin Bieber ft Ludacris



Oh ~ oh ~ oh ~ oh.
You know you love me, I know you care,
you shout whenever and I'll be there.
You are my love, you are my heart
and we will never ever ever be apart.
Are we an item? girl quit playing,
we're just friends, what are you saying.
Said there's another, look right in my eyes,
my first love broke my heart for the first time.
And I was like

Baby, baby, baby oooooh,
like baby, baby, baby noooooooo,
like baby, baby, baby, ooooh.
Thought you'd always be mine, mine

Oh, for you I would have done whatever,
and I just can't believe we aint together
and I wanna play it cool but I'm losing you
I'd buy you anything, I'd buy you any ring,
and now please say baby fix me and you shake me til you wake me from this bad dream.
I'm going down down down down
and I just cant believe my first love won't be around.
And Im like


When I was 13 I had my first love,
there was nobody that compared to my baby
and nobody came between us, no-one could ever come above
She had me going crazy, oh I was star-struck,
she woke me up daily, dont need no Starbucks.
She made my heart pound, I skip a beat when I see her in the street and
at school on the playground but I really wanna see her on the weekend.
She knows she got me dazing coz she was so amazing
and now my heart is breaking but I just keep on saying.

Now Im gone,
Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah,
yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah,
yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah,
now Im all gone.
Gone, gone, gone, gone, I'm gone.

Living for myself

Life starts, when you start living for yourself.

Make the best of everything you have, and carpe diem!
Because there's no one else more worth living for, than yourself.

Back from hiatus

About time to be back! The past 2 months or so has been a tornado-like end to my student life. Though I must say I'm much too old to cope with so much drama, excitement and disappointment in such a short period of time. In fact, I'm not only old now, I'm FAT. Blame it on my dissertation stress! I'm been pigging out like there's no tomorrow.

OR NOT.
Just kidding!

Actually its just a coincidental screenshot I took while skyping. This picture gave me 8 extra kilos. But actually I haven't gained any :( Yeah, if only it's so easy for me to gain weight!

I'm flying back to Malaysia on Thursday, due to land on Friday. About a month later, I have got to drag me bum back to UK for graduation, visa, and work :(

But at the moment, I'm enjoying aimless days, with absolutely nothing to do. Especially over the past almost-6-months, I've been working hard. Very, very hard. And I'm tired. I want to take a break. From all that. From EVERYTHING. Because, I'm really, really tired.

I have exhausted so much effort and energy, and yet, Newton's 3rd Law ceases to apply.