In my attempt to indulge in some less brain consuming activity after work hours, I find myself stumbling into the rabbit hole that is relating to the stories told by Gossip Girl.
And I realized, that I'm very much a Blair Waldorf. In so many ways.
"Dorotha, what's going on with me?"
"You aren't fighting with Mr. Chuck, so you fight with everyone else."
My personal favourite similarity is our attraction to Chuck Bass. Translated into real life, he would be an calculated man, who is determined to achieve success nothing less than great. At the right time, composed and steady, occasionally indulgent and dangerous.
"You two used to be in love, and together you were invincible. But now that you've turned against each other, it's just a matter of time before your mutual destruction..."
He should be the one that will bring out the ultimate best of both individuals.
"What I want is to be a powerful woman. But whenever Chuck's around, I just feel like a weak little girl"
And he should also be the only person who can have the power to affect me that way.
But then again, that's probably everyone's dream man as well. The secret to a good show, is when everyone invests their emotions into the stories while relating to it.
"I wanted to let you know, the treaty is over"
"Fine with me. This pretense of stability was exhausting"
"Being amicable wasn't in our blood. Ever realised we're not friends? Friends have to like each other. And after what happened tonight, I could never like you."
"I could never like you either. In fact, I hate you."
"I never hated anyone, more. "
"Every nerve ending in my body is electrified, by hatred."
"Every fiery pit of hate burning inside me is ready, to explode."
Sometimes, all it takes is just one weekend to turn everything around.
I've just had my 13th week review with my new tutor on Friday. It was an incredibly long discussion, that left me very very satisfied in the end. She does not work Fridays. Taking into consideration that she travelled all the way to work, plucked me out from the dispensary, bought me F&B at Costa while we had our review, I am super pleased with my new tutor. My previous tutor was good too, she did her best with the limited number of hours that she had. But THIS, is a world apart by far! Relevant paperwork signed off and ready to go, future progress plans to put in place. Watch out because this prereg is putting her foot down on the accelerator. VROOMMMM!!!
That's work sorted. Now on to Finances.
Last weekend I was in Cambridge with a few lovely Pharmey girls. This weekend, I'm in Oxford again as a good girl, eager to sort her life out. I am very pleased to have joined two new banks, with FULL intention to leave my current bank. Overall I am extremely glad to have remembered that a good bank can make my money work as hard as I do, instead of sitting there, growing not bigger, and not just mould. It is risky, what I've done, committing to 2 banks, to make the most of the small savings that I'm starting out with. This means I have a bit of 'banking homework' to do every month. But I believe the rewards at the end could be very much worthwhile, even so if I had managed them properly. Before I take on the world, I must be able to manage my own world. The benefits are always here to be reaped, but visible only for those who seek. If all goes well, I will apply for my very own (not daddy's supplementary) credit card.
Groceries have been sorted which is good! Laundry I will do tomorrow. I'm looking forward to go out for a couple of theatre performances in November with a good friend. Dinner with at least 3 other lovely people in Oxford is super overdue. Frankly I'm delighted with how I'm gradually gaining social life in quaint little (okay not so little) Oxford, despite working full time, and being away from town almost every weekend. Happy as I am with creating a mini social life, I am still determined to keep this to a happy medium because this year could make a huge difference to my career, and thus my future. I need to plan with utmost care.
Plus a new hair cut from Toni & Guy Oxford with Holly to boot!
Am super pleased with how she made my wish come true. BIG HAIR, with just a tiny bit of length cut off. When I think I look good, I feel good :)
Overall, am very pleased with how everything has settled now. 16 weeks completed of my first full time permanent job. 36 to go.
The past couple of months of my life would have beat the drama on Gossip Girl flat. Like FLAT. I am so through with the chaos. For November, I foresee the erratic patterns calm down. In order to do that I'll need a little extra time and energy. And set my life straight.
One of the most important updates that I am very proud to announce, is that I've set my finances straight. New solutions and investments have been put in place, and we'll see where that'll take me.
On the other hand, I am putting travel plans on a temporary hold. I've visited many of my friends, and heard all sorts. For most of them, I am very very pleased to see them doing so well. Especially my classmates. I am, truly proud of them for coping so well after they've taken flight away from our Nottingham 'nest'. It inspires me to keep overcoming the adversities life is throwing at me in my career.
Work is improving, but the process is painfully slow. I'm doing something about it. Call me impatient, but I'm not going to be held back.
To be continued... (probably on my next lunch break)