Wednesday, December 31, 2008

The New Year 2009 and My Resolutions

A load of "Mental Excretion"s + New Year Resolutions + My One True Love

Just when I have gotten used to writing 2008 on my dates, they decide to go change the year to make my life difficult again. Okay, that's not the scariest part of welcoming a New Year. It is the thought of going to have yet ANOTHER New Year, that makes me feel ancient. And I shall confess that I am terrified of growing up now. It took me 20 years to realize that time passes way too fast, and there's nothing you can do about it.

10 years ago on New Years Eve, I was looking forward for the dreaded Year End Holidays to end. So that my friends would come back from their hometowns and rejoin me in KL, in school.

10 years has past, and on THIS New Years Eve, I'm hoping that the clock will strike midnight, and stay there. So January 2009 will never come. Following that, my exams will never come XD That's wishful thinking for me.

How did I turn into this Age-phobic old lady? I don't know. Maybe it's because I'm 20, doing year 3 in Uni, graduating at 21 and going to work very very soon. I see the horizon of my student days, and it's not too far away *gulp*

Since the New Year is going to come and hit me on the head whether I like it or not, I might as well make the most of it. But I ain't planning to be sober when it comes.

New Year Resolutions

Reach my 45 kg target! And stay there!
(Weight as the permanent feature on my Resolutions List, why am I so hard to satisfy.)
Perhaps when I get frustrated, I should just swallow 3kg worth of food. Heh heh. 3 more kilos to put on. Shouldn't be too hard?

Be kinder to myself and my needs.
That means less self-restriction, and more self expression. I realized that I'm often being too hard on myself >.<>

The "Greater" Shopping List
-Acoustic Guitar
-Dior Addict Shine EDT
-Sony Ericsson XPERIA
-Cabin-sized trolley luggage
-Wang Lee Hom - Heart.Beat/ 王力宏 - 心.跳 (more about this below.)

Just some stuff I can live without, and really don't need. But want them really, really badly! As they are not necessities, I shall resort to put myself through a savings scheme. These are times when I hate being a female. Bah.

Take more photos, upload more photos, blog more.
Thanks to my dear PotaTeo's reminder, I shall be more diligent in uploading my pictures. I mean, my guy friends have more pictures than me on Facebook! HOW CAN?! Can't lose out to them *voluntarily succumbing to peer pressure* Actually, I realized I haven't been logging my life as much as I'd like to. The past 6 months of being in UK was in fact some of the more "happening" days of my life. And I'd like to laugh at these crazy Uni days 50 years from now.

Re-organizing priorities.
In short, Family, Friends and Studies come first. Others? Take a number and get in the queue.

Try not to fall down. AGAIN.
Can't blame the girl for trying too hard on this. I'm the most ungraceful thing you've ever seen.

Get my First Aid License
Yes, I'm working on it and I'm getting there. Despite my hectic schedule, I'm still determined to attend those night classes. Exams are in February, so wish me luck.

Alright, that's pretty much all I can think of right now. I could be making additions to the list all the way through before midnight in UK. To all my fellas....

Happy New Year 2009
Have a good 365 days, full of pleasant surprises =)


Also, I'm delighted to make a new announcement. I, have found my one true love, and I'm proud to introduce him to you. He saved me from my heartaches, and he's been so supportive by being there for me these few days while I've been studying.

Wang Lee Hom 王力宏 - Heart Beat 心.跳 - 03 春雨里洗過的太陽

This is my favourite song of the album. His first single released for this album is a hit too!

Wang Lee Hom 王力宏 - Heart Beat 心.跳 - 02 心跳

Tell me, who wouldn't fall head over heels for him.
Kimi darling, I want you to know that I still love you, but you're on holiday. In the mean time, I shall have an affair with LeeHom =P

Monday, December 29, 2008

I know what I did last christmas

I know what I did last Christmas. And I've been on Santa's Naughty List! Oops... XD

24th December 2008: Christmas Eve

Got this baby for my 20th birthday. Downed it all in a night with an old friend.
In the end I turned into an oversized Drunken Lobster that chattered uncontrollably until I unknowingly fell asleep. Poor fella had to send me back to my room at 4 in the morning.
What a way to start the festive season =)

25th December 2008: Christmas Day

EeHow The One who Karate-ed the Turkey, Daniel The Celebrated Chef,
and Julyan The Hungry.
Daniel created a Culinary Masterpiece with this "Extra Large" turkey on his virgin attempt. Hats off to him. The turkey was "God-like" and it was the best I've tasted this season. This turkey did not die in vain. It died proud and tasty, in my very happy tummy =P
There's no better way for a turkey to die. Seriously.

Daniel took the dinner up a notch with his selection of red and white wines.
And there were also Guinness Draught, Tiramisu, Chocolates, Soft drinks, Potatoes, Stuffing Balls, Brussel Sprouts and Sausages to distract us from The Turkey.
This is Fine Dining at 51, Beeston Road for 12.

The drinks are not even opened yet and they are already drunk.
Swinging knives and bottles about.
Such dangerous people I'm mixing with, tsk tsk.

Simon (my lobster relative), Myself, EeHow, and ShinHau.
Where there is alcohol, there is a lobster in its presence.

After dinner we played Secret Santa, and Brian got my Dr.Who Bubble Bath.
Bath with it, and you'll have skin like Dr.Who's. LOL!
A bunch of twenty-somethings playing Secret Santa, sweat.
But to be honest it was really fun, because somehow we made the boys play the guitar and sing us some Christmasy tunes. Good times, good times =D

With all these booze and good food, I think I'm getting fatter for real this time!
Take a close look at me and tell me what you think.

Daniel, Daniel's guitar, Daniel's Room, and Myself.
Thank you so much. We had a great night. So next year's turkey on YOU again! =P

27th December 2008: Post-Boxing Day SALES

I shopped. Till I nearly dropped.
Shan't put any photos up because My Mom will kill me.

My God, did I miss Nasi Lemak.
We found the restaurant that the Nottingham Malaysian Society has been catering from.
Pretty Orchid is located at a hidden corner in the city centre, and serves Malaysian Food of course. Lunch goes for 5.50, for another 1.50 you can have an appetizer to go with it.

At the end of the day I had 4 bags, and they include 3 tops and a new pair of shoes.
The total undiscounted price cost around 70, and I spent less than half of that ^^
Thanks to the Year End SALES + the new VAT reduction and Student Discounts!
The theme of my shopping day was Workwear, for my new job in Oxford next summer =)

Among them, is The Most Gorgeous Workwear I have ever tried on.
I sort of knew it was meant for me. It's a size 6. The only one left.
Unfortunately it was not on sale, and I had to think twice if I could afford it.

Thanks to some kind souls, it was my Christmas prezzie!

Advice I got from the Cashier at Dorothy Perkins

"Don't complain honey, just let him buy it for you"

Sweat =.=

*Pictures were taken by Daniel and Brian. Lazy me got them straight off Facebook.

Thursday, December 25, 2008

Merry Christmas

A big shout out to ALL...

M E R R Y C H R I S T M A S ! ! !

Try to keep yourself off Santa's Naughty List

Love your Liver

Feast and be merry

Spread the joy and love of the season

Join the Turkey Population Control

Shop till you drop and save UK from recession

Contribute to charity

May you and everyone have a blessed holiday

and a fairytale ending to the year.

With Love from, Suet Ling.

Tuesday, December 23, 2008


I've been absent, and with good reason. From the 15th till the 21st, I have been diligently eluding the confines of Broadgate Park, exercising my freedom, and spending the last remaining dimes I earned during summer.

Alas, all is spent. And then some more.

Paris was awesome. 12 Malaysians exploring Paris, camping at the Luton Airport, camping at the Charles de Gaulle Airport, pretending to be Japanese, doing all that for 5 days was refreshing, to say the least. No, I'm not going to go through the details of the trip, simply because many others will be doing that already. Because everyone went to Paris this Christmas, sigh... You can piece up all the stories from the hundreds of pictures on my Facebook.

In short, we visited the famous must-see landmarks in Paris...

The Notre Dame Cathedral

"Japanese" terrorists at The Eiffle Tower.

The Versailles Palace.

Spent 50 Euros on Disneyland Paris, but it was worth every penny.

Visiting the Musee du Louvre and met the famous Ms.Mona Lisa.

And the they 5 of us missed our flight and got stranded in Paris.
Damn you EasyJet. Won't fly with you again!

To put it simply, the lady at the check-in counter closed on us! Hello, the person in front of us still managed to check in. So we had to spent another 50-something Euros on a new flight ticket, another more pounds on a new bus ticket. Bah!

Basically, I'm beyond broke now.
No, Boxing Day shopping for me! T___T
My Christmas Wish List shall have to wait then...

Sunday, December 14, 2008

X-Factor 2008

All Hail the New Queen of X-Factor... Alexandra Burke.

To be honest, it wasn't a surprise to me. From the moment I saw her at the auditions, I just knew she would make it to the final at least. Sweet, pretty, humble and all that. Boring, typical, personality. Right, the type that paparazzi loves to hate.

Not loving her cover song though. Boring. For her ultimate vocal prowess, check out her version / duet with La Diva Beyonce --- Listen.

Also, allow me to introduce my favourite contestant, who just got eliminated from semi-finals. Diana Vickers! This quirky little girl looks absolutely stunning on stage, sounds even more amazing on the speakers.

Check out all the other videos on YouTube!

That's one last post from me. Wondering why?

"I'm going to Paris tomorr-wow!!! No, actually, in a few hours"

*Cute Pose 1*

*Cute Pose 2*


Sounds familiar? This ought to refresh your memory...

Am I the only one who noticed that eyebrow twitch that's so annoying? Michael thinks she's pretty =P But all I see is plastic surgery, lol.

Oh, oh, and check out XiaXue's parody of it as well! ROFLMAO...

Hats off to XiaXue for over-doing it. I almost feel like doing it myself. Depends on my mood, lol.

Aiya, I know there's like too many YouTube videos in one post. I almost fell asleep many more times while studying these few nights. Sigh. One 2 minute YouTube video for 15 minutes worth of alertness. A small price to pay?

*grab my bag and run off to Paris*

Thursday, December 11, 2008

What to bring to Paris

This is a general announcement.

To be honest I don't know why I'm announcing this to everybody. Probably don't want to lose out to some people, lol. I hear people going to Italy, Spain, Portugal, Germany ever so often it's starting to bug me that the only place I seem to be going is the toilet.

But anyway....

I'm going to Paris!!! *Play La Vie En Rose*

Think The Eiffle Tower, The Louvre Museum, Champs Elysee, Louis Vuitton, Mimes, Sidewalk cafes, and Dali-esque street caricaturists!

I'll be leaving Nottingham by bus on Sunday evening to Luton Airport, followed by a sleepover at the airport! Might as well make it a full scale pyjama party huh? For all you know we might make it onto YouTube and be famous celebrities ever after! Lol, wishful thinking! Yeah we will leave the UK in the morning, and land in beautiful Paris shortly after! Am I excited or am I too excited?! *Girly scream*

My Packing List is as follows, for my tripmates reference and convenience:

Passports + bus and flight tickets
Time to dig out your passports, blow off the thick layer of dust on its surface, and get another stained page on your book! You know we can't go anywhere without any of these. Can everyone triple check with everyone before departure for safety! We don't want anyone of us making The Star headlines: Malaysian detained at Paris Airport!

Toothbrush + Toothpaste
You'll be amazed to know that I forget this on 50% of my trips, it's on the top of my list now.
One room can probably bring 1 tube of toothpaste and share among yourselves.

Travel sized Shampoo + Shower Creme + Facial Cleanser
Ahah! A perfect chance to indulge in some of the luxurious toiletries I got for my birthday...
Again, this can be shared to save luggage space. What's the worst that can happen?
Okay, maybe it'll be scary if all the boys smell like Simon. You know he tends to attracts gay attention for some weird reason. Let's hope its not because of his smell.

Bodycare: Lipbalm, Body Lotion, Face Moisturiser, Hair wax/gel (guys) etc.
Hey we're gonna take plenty of pictures, can't blame a girl for wanting to look pretty =D

Towel & Hairdryer
You boys, please remember to bring your own towel. I'm definitely not sharing! Girls, can we work out something with the hair dryer?

Disposable underwears can be considered if you think underwears are a waste of luggage space. Anyway 5 day old underwears should be skunk smelly! Just throw 'em away! No sharing amongst yourselves for this one. If you are, I don't want to know. Ewww...

Clothes & Socks
Please bring enough. It's winter there anyway so I doubt that we're actually gonna sweat. Perhaps clothes can be reworn over and over again.

Glasses, Contact Lenses and Saline
Only applies to contact lens users. Looking for someone to bring one bottle of saline because I don't have a travel sized one!

Handphones, Cameras WITH Memory cards AND Chargers
Please, please and a gazillion please bring them with you! The iPhone-ers can share chargers no problem! How many Sony Ericsson users are there? Can we work out a compromise? Contact me!

Cash and Credit Cards
As previously discussed, please have about 300 pounds worth of Euros on standby. Solo debit cards (means NatWest Step Account users) are not accepted in France. Just in case, please bring your credit cards along as well.

Miscellanous : Swiss Army Knife, Fork and Spoons, Tissues, Water bottle.
These are optional but good to have! If you 've got some extra space to spare in your bags.

Antiseptic Cream, Pain killers, Band-Aids, Antihistamines, Sanitary Pads, Tissues, Condoms (guys)
I've learnt that accidents always happen when you don't want them to. Maybe one of us are allergic to foie gras, truffles, or escargot! Antihistamines are a must bring so no one goes into an anaphylactic shock! There's always someone who's allergic to this, or allergic to that. Guys, I heard French women are hot, know what to bring. Heh heh.

READ THIS: French for Travelers
Since our lot seemed to have more interest in German than French, we'll just have to pick up some basic French overnight. A little bit only la, NO EXCUSE, MUST READ! I've done the work by looking it up for you. Click here. For pick up lines, DIY ok. I'm not a Non-Profit Charitable Organization. And no, just Je t'aime is not enough. French women can't speak English, but they are not stupid hor. Hehehehe, just kidding! =)

And last but not least, Books/Notes for Revision!
Don't hentam me for saying this ok. Don't say I didn't remind you that exams are in January!

Right, now did I miss anything out? Hope everything fits in one handcarrier :S

Tuesday, December 09, 2008

200th post blog-o-versary

It's a bird...
It's a plane...

It's Ling-O-Logy's 200th post blog-o-versary...!!!
*throwing confetti everywhere*

Today has been good. By "good", I nearly always mean " productive". I woke up bright and early at 8am, and slowly made myself some decent breakfast! Semi-naked. Muahahaha. We had good sun on this lovely Tuesday morning, so I got rid of the curtains and let me poor pale skin absorb some rays. To say the least, I have been very sun deprived to the extent to evolving into a vampire like appearance. Just in case you're wondering I don't live on the ground floor, and I was alone at that time. Only some birds saw me making breakfast like Britney in Womanizer.

Following that I hopped into the shower for a long and hot one, then lovingly blow dried my hair. I picked out something nice from my closet, and grabbed some chocolate on my way out. Chocolate courtesy of a cutie, and that saved me from 2-decades-of-life-crisis =) With that I just know it's going to be a good day. Got out in the lovely cloudless weather, and managed to get plenty of my errands done, stopping just to get myself another chocolate bar to keep my mood going. Can I say I'm developing an addiction to chocolate as does people to coffee now? I need a cup of hot chocolate every morning now just to get myself going! I have sold my soul to Chocolates.

As something special for this special post on this special day... I'm gonna post some crumbs of my life. In other words, stuff I wanted to blog about, but am too lazy to do it because of assignments/ dinners/ head-hunted/ shopping/ burnt my kitchen/ period pain/ headache/ hangover and a gazillion of other excuses.

EeHow's legendary 21st birthday at Hooters.

Girls Gang also @ Hooters! As customers not as waitresses ok.
Both of mine still can't make up half a hooter. Lol.
Jiao (CHN), Myself, YitLing, WeiYe (CHN), SayYuen, Cassie (CHN).
By the way, China Chicks are like so hot.

Traditional Toilet Shot in the bar toilet after 2 shots of Vodka.
Myself, YitLing, Sara, Rachael, PuiLing.

Another pic of me drinking with some new found friends at The Living Room =)
IngChang, YitLing, Elwin (Bru), Daniel, Myself and Archi (Phil)
All others are Malaysians unless stated.

Condom, Tampons, and Gum vending machine in a bar toilet.

The super awesome Bak Kut Teh I made on my birthday.
It's actually much browner, but the vapour keeps clouding my lens =(
Anyway you should be glad you can't smell it, that's because you can't eat it =P

Have you ever tried looking up in the sky for a change?
Venue: Broadgate Park.

The little bit of sun we get nowadays.
Venue: School of Pharmacy.

Winter Day Out @ Old Market Square
Gary (HK), SayYuen, Myself, ChinHong, SiuSien, PekSan.

Acting like we're all below 20 on my 20th birthday surprise!
Michael (HK), Myself, SayYuen, Gary(HK).

Something awesome I made for DeeSin's birthday party. Tastes more special that it looks, with secret ingredients and secret recipe and secret method =P

Yeah, now you know how lazy I am. Lol.
Bah, got my Computing report to finish up, can't be bothered with anything else.
*Scratch out my bloodshot eye balls to stick them onto the screen*

Yes this stupid blob is my report.
Tata for now. Mummy check your email please. Thank you.

Saturday, December 06, 2008

Turning 20


To everyone, for the wishes, the cake and presents, and for being part of my 2 decades worth of life!

I love you all so much! Thank you for letting me turn 20. You guys had 20 years to kill me, but you didn't, which is really, really sweet. I want to thank my mom and dad for giving birth to me, my siblings whom I always bully, my teachers for having mercy when I forgot my homework, bla bla, so on, so on... Cheh, like the speech after receiving an Oscar award =P

Wow. The Big TWO-O! I'm so freaking old now T__T Needs getting used to really. Like yesterday, I went to Pitcher & Piano, which is a bar.

The Bouncer was like, how old are you?
I'm like, ninet.... No wait, I'm TWENTY!!! *huge kiddy grin*

Muahahaha, first moment of actually feeling happy to say I'm 20. By the way, not that I don't appreciate the wishes, but I'm actually 2o this year, rather than 21. I have no idea why there are quite a number of my friends out there making that mistake. Hmmm... Don't tell me I look THAT OLD! Okay maybe I do, considering I did receive a bottle of anti-wrinkle cream just recently.

Forget the "What I've done/achieve on my way to turning 20". Boring.

I'm gonna make a list of "What I want to do now that I'm 20"!!!

- Insist that I'm really 18 instead of 20, when prompted.
- Start making people call me Jie Jie, for a change.
- Get drunk, like really drunk. Puke. Hangover. The whole package.
- Earn more money, spend more money $$$
- Fill some pages on my crisp new passport. The cleanliness of the pages is starting to bug me.
- Give up trying to grow taller. Undivided focus on getting fatter from now.

And this is how I look like when I am 20.

That's All Folks!
*Play: Looney Toons tune*

Monday, December 01, 2008


Right now, it's all about the weather. Uh huh. You ask about the weather, you wear according to the weather, you go out in the weather, and of course you wonder "weather" it will rain/snow today. *hoho, pun-puns =)*

Some purple scribbles for my own amusement!
This is what I live with everyday. Today I lived with 0'C in the morning, and 2'C in the afternoon as shown on the top right corner. Sub zero temperatures are becoming the norm here, I no longer think my fridge is cold anymore. Haha. These are times when you buy fresh milk, and leave them on the windowsill to keep chilled.

Those who missed the little snowfall about a week ago, fret not! You will have your chance of seeing "heavy snow" on Thursday!! But beware, the wind will be excruciating at 23 mph. Time to wrap up like a kebab people!

To my parents who's been wondering why I've been whining all about the weather ALL THE TIME, now you know why. Sob sob. I want my mummy... And I want to be able to wear my skirts again!!!

But then while I was out last weekend, I saw several (means quite a lot) british girls walking around in short skirts, WITHOUT stockings or leggings. Just bare, shaved, legs. Not to mention a number of them still strutting down the street, with half their breasts hanging out, just enough to warm the blood of passing men. Hahaha, how convenient and considerate indeed. I wonder if that would count as a good deed? An easy way out of Santa's naughty list perhaps? Lol...

Anyway, everything is Christmas-fied, and the atmosphere in Nottingham is nothing less than Christmasy! I LOVE THIS HOLIDAY!!! And I miss that Christmas Tree at home. Sigh... I don't get to put the star on it this year.

Saturday, November 29, 2008

PS I Love You

You HAVE GOT TO try TERRACOTTA, the brand new chinese restaurant in Beeston!
(I mean it! Got To!)

Personally, I've been there several times, and each experience has never been a let down!
Can I first say that for someone who's trapped in smelly ol' Broadgate Park for weeks on end, I expect my occassional excursions out of the accommodation to be smashingly worthwhile.

Credits go to Milton who has spent much of his ATP convincing me that dorm-air is bad for my health, other than assuring me that I don't want to be a BGP Zombie with no life for all eternity. Others worthy of mentioning are Angil, Tim, Che Zi, Fred and Xie Chong for the car rides (I miss the smell of car seats!), singing, invitations, toasting, alcohol and the wonderful company of course! Multi-National Chinese Hospitality at its best I must say, with American, HongKee, China Chinese, Taiwanese and Malaysians sharing their genetically programmed love for good chinese food and karaoke.

Let's now go over the most important thing, PRICES! I wouldn't say it's expensive. If you had spent time looking around Beeston, you will know that the price is definitely not a discriminating factor here.
I've the "Seafood" page here to totally tempt your tastebuds.
Well, the seafood page is always more expensive than the "chicken" page, mind you.

Tim and Che Zi waiting impatiently for their food.
To be honest, this place looks and feels better than the Tai Thong Restaurants we were so used to back in Malaysia.

All the while not skimping on the warm and inviting decor.
Though I do find the statues a little too creepy because every time I look up from my food, I see them staring at me stony-faced and all.
*GULP* and the food I swallowed landed in my stomach in a stony-sounding thud.

After your meal, you can always opt to digest them with a good round of singing at their karaoke rooms. They cost 8 to 10 pounds an hour for a small room, not to sure about the big ones. On weekends, they even open till 4am. Just for you to sing the Mr.Sun of out of his bed.

Tim telling his Karaoke Kakis that he's starting without them!

Our "regular small room" beautifully hand painted, comfortably furnished.
The negotiation of who gets the mic first, before the kakis come pouring in.
Haha! Just kidding.

And that is just ONE HALF of Terracotta! Be sure to check out their BAR, it's GORGEOUS!!!
(Sorry, forgot to take pictures in the bar because I was too distracted *winks*)
I'm in love with the tasteful decor and furniture, and sexy barmen *salivates* Allow me to assure you it's totally westernised on the other half of the restaurant! Get your liquor and cocktail fix without going all the way into the city.

Flaming Lamborghinis are available on request. I've tried the Mojito that was slightly different from the ones in Malaysia and PS I Love You which was totally sweet and yummy. Both were awesome. At some point I also downed or shot of something no one wanted to tell me. It tasted great, but I felt a little whoozy not long after. Lol. Yeah, they have a DJ on weekends too, and a bouncer to keep everything in order. In terms of the girls, well, I did see some chinese girls (majority of the patrons are chinese obviously) and they will let you buy them drinks =)

Whoever's planning to go to Terracotta please bring me along as well :D I promise I'll be good.

Monday, November 24, 2008

its about milton

After a nights worth of tossing and turning in my bed, I woke up an hour earlier than what I normally would do on a 9am-class-day. Waking up several times in the dead of the night to realize that I'm probably the only soul alert and conscious at this ungodly hour, did nothing to help my mood. Frustrated, I dragged my shivering self to the bathroom, hurriedly grabbing a towel along the way to wrap around some exposed limbs.

While I was brushing my teeth, I saw this girl frowning back at me in the mirror. Her eyebrows were brought closer together across the nose bridge, connected by a wrinkle of the skin. It's 7.10am in the morning and my brain is already reeling away at the issue I've been troubled about for 3 days now. When I deemed enough enamel polishing has been done for this morning, I spat out my toothpaste, hoping that my troubles came out with it, and wishing that I could wash that thought down the basin with a flick of my hand on the tap. What a silly girl I was, if it were that easy, it would've been done 3 days ago. And I wondered, at 19 going on 20, is a girl allowed any room to be naive and hopelessly hopeful?

The thing that bothers me most, I think, would be the fact that I can't share it with anyone, but the one person that is part of the problem. Oh, how I dread these moments when I am being tested, mentally and emotionally, in such brutal ways. Moments when you know what is the right thing to do, and yet, your heart is not at all keen to oblige. What the hell is the right thing to do then?!

I cared, maybe a little more than I'd like to. And that was more than enough to make me "do the right thing", and it lasted long enough for me to not feel the guilt towards my own heart, until the moment that person left. All these years of being told what is the "right thing to do", is starting to get on my nerves. And I admit, most of the time, the "right thing to do" involves swapping your selfish needs for another persons happiness. Would that be a Selfless Deed, or just Plain Stupidity? Tough choice, I guess.

Perhaps, one day. One day I will find a reason to justify my doing, if it didn't turn out the way I'd like it to. What are the odds? With my current unlucky streak, it's probably going to take a turn for the worse. Subconsciously knowing that, I surprised myself when I realized that I cared enough to have a nightmare about the worst ever outcome. Obviously the mug lying on my table is half empty at this point. I'm looking forward to a chance when I can just be selfish, and be happy for myself for a change. All that thunderstorm in my heart kind of business has got to stop. I find myself at the brink of crashing down.

The only difference between me and others is, there's not going to be anyone there to call 999 if I did. How I wish I could say I'm coincidently going to be so very close to Bedford.

Saturday, November 22, 2008

Kitchen On Fire

You know those cooking shows you watched on TV? With professional chefs, drizzling in some wine/ oil, and with a little toss, the pan goes in flames for a brief moment, only to disappear, leaving food looking and tasting (and pricing) better than ever?

I had that "awesome experience" on Friday night.

Yes, something like that, except, imagine me instead of him, holding a pot instead.
You'd think, "Wait a minute, I thought there was no fire stoves in your studio"
Bingo. There wasn't. I was just heating up some oil in a pot.
It wasn't unsupervised, so I pretty much witnessed it lighting up!
Was about to put my chicken in, had I leaned a few inches closer, my face would've been burnt with my hair going up in smoke.

The Notorious Pot of Oil.
The flames were huge, and I must admit I panicked. Like, Whoa...
Not my first mishap with fires. Apparently, we don't have a history of getting along well.
Then I remembered the fire blanket in my room.
One tug, and one throw later, the fire was contained in the pot, and I can see it getting smaller.
Just when I thought the situation was under control, there was too much smoke in my room the fire alarm went off.
Great. A full scale evacuation was all I need.

I have been cooking for a few years, and I know that you pretty much can't cook without heating up oil. Which brings me to the deduction that I can't cook if every time I heat up oil the pot will catch fire? Or maybe it was too long? I don't know... I am damn sure it was heated for less than 5 minutes. Sigh. Another streak of bad luck.

My kettle a little burnt, but most of it were removed after cleaning.

My cooker hood suffered a little more, as the flames were so huge the flames were licking the hood. Cleaning managed to remove most of the dark stains, which were more like smoke stains. But there are some burnt areas that couldn't be salvaged. Sigh. I have a bad feeling I'm not getting back my deposit.

Thank God, everything else, and myself was alright.
Badly shaken, but I'm alright.

I pretty much trembled for the next hour or so.
I was so frightened I lost my appetite for a few hours, but I knew there was one number I could call. Gratefully, he knew what to do with me, and that was just what I needed after a horrible night.

Huo Guo Rou @ The Pink Wing in Beeston!
This, my friends are super yummy.
We ate, we chatted, we sang karaoke, we downed some Jack Daniels and Chivas along with some new friends and dice games.
The mood was sometimes merry, at times it was low.
I guess we were both in a similar situation right now, and somehow we were there to support each other. Someone said, God planned for him to find me, because he felt like I was just what he needed right now, and he appreciated the fire for bringing me to him last night.

I went into deep thought and had another mouthful of whiskey.

I don't know anything. I don't know if God exists. If I can help him. If the fire happened for a greater good. If I can pay off the damages to my kitchen. If I have completely gotten over my past relationship. I don't know.

All I know is, I will do my best and hope that "I can make it through the rain".

Wednesday, November 19, 2008

if i were a boy

These are times when I do random searching on YouTube, all I found was... myself. The lyrics to this is written so perfectly, I had flashbacks of my life throughout the song. *Sigh* I hope everyone enjoys this too.

Wish I have my guitar here, so that I can try playing this song. *EMO* There are some lines I want to emphasize in purple...

If I Were A Boy Lyrics

Beyonce Knowles

If I were a boy
Even just for a day
I’d roll outta bed in the morning
And throw on what I wanted then go
Drink beer with the guys
And chase after girls
I’d kick it with who I wanted
And I’d never get confronted for it.
Cause they’d stick up for me.

If I were a boy
I think I could understand
How it feels to love a girl
I swear I’d be a better man.
I’d listen to her
Cause I know how it hurts
When you lose the one you wanted
Cause he’s taken you for granted
And everything you had got destroyed

If I were a boy
I would turn off my phone
Tell everyone it’s broken
So they’d think that I was sleepin’ alone
I’d put myself first
And make the rules as I go
Cause I know that she’d be faithful
Waitin’ for me to come home (to come home)

If I were a boy
I think I could understand
How it feels to love a girl
I swear I’d be a better man.
I’d listen to her
Cause I know how it hurts
When you lose the one you wanted (wanted)
Cause he’s taken you for granted (granted)
And everything you had got destroyed

It’s a little too late for you to come back
Say its just a mistake
Think I’d forgive you like that
If you thought I would wait for you
You thought wrong

[Chorus 2]
But you’re just a boy
You don’t understand
Yeah you don’t understand
How it feels to love a girl someday
You wish you were a better man
You don’t listen to her
You don’t care how it hurts
Until you lose the one you wanted
Cause you’ve taken her for granted
And everything you have got destroyed
But you’re just a boy

Tuesday, November 18, 2008

tagged by Suet Tyng

Tagged by Suet Tyng
(This is me indulging in some brainless activity for my sadistic pleasure)

Pass this quiz to 10 people.
1. LeoRaj
2. Lilian Wong
3. Dominic Teoh
4. Michael
5. Eric Chay
6. Brian Teo
7. Siu Sien
8. Gary Chooi
9. Kenny Yap
10. Diane Shak

Who is no.6 having relationship with?[Brian Teo]
Not having one anymore apparently.

Is no. 9 a male or a female? [Kenny Yap]
Male, at least that's what he told me.

If no. 7 and no. 10 are together, will it be a good thing?[Siu Sien and Diane]
What? Eewwww... what kind of stupid question is this?

What is no. 2 studying? After high school?[Lilian]
Bachelor in Computer Science. And very good at it =)

When was the last time you had a chat with no. 3?[Dominic Teoh]
About 2 weeks ago?

What genre of music does no.8 like?[Gary]
Oh that's easy. EMO of course!

Would you ever woo no. 3?[Dominic Teoh]
No. Never. Nada. (Dom, you're a good man, but I like fatter men)

How about no. 7?[Siu Sien]
Her boyfriend would kill me.

Is no.4 single?[Michael]
Oh yes he definitely is.

What is the surname of no.5?[Eric]
Chay. No really, it's Chay.

What's the hobby of no. 10?[Diane]
Smiling =)

Does no.5 and no.9 get along well?[Eric and Kenny]
Let me introduce them and then maybe we can find out.

Where is no.2 studying?[Lilian]
Graduated and working now =)

Say something casual about no.1.[LeoRaj]
MDB! Malaysian Dream Blogger!

Have you ever tried developing feelings for no.6?[Brian]
I have developed much love for him, as a friend of course.

Where does no.9 live?[Kenny]
Terengganu, Malaysia. Where they get Fridays and Saturdays off.

What color does no.4 like?[Michael]
Doesn't matter as long as you can find the colours on Ultraman.

Are no. 5 and no. 1 best friends?[Eric and Leo]
No, they can't be more far apart from each other.

Is no. 7 the most talented person in the world?[Siu Sien]
Talented? Of course. In the world? Raikkonen takes that spot.

There. Brainless activity accomplished. Now, for some brainfood....

Friday, November 14, 2008

Anti-sick people campaign

I'm tired of mumbling, "NOT ANOTHER ONE" to myself. So this is going to public, once and for all! For I am not a very happy sick person now.

I hereby proclaim war against Stubborn Sick People.

Before anyone start abandoning me for discrimination against people with ill health, please hear me out. Ill people are MY BUSINESS you know. Pharmacist-in-training, hello?

There is a particular SUBTYPE of Sick People, you qualify if you fulfill all the conditions below.

-Has been sick for more than 3 days, or have been sick more than twice in 1 month
-Don't take care of your health, eg: not eat, not sleep, not clean
-Live in a poorly hygienic environment
-Have people around you who are also sick
-Think you can "handle" it
-Not going to the doctor/pharmacist
-Not taking medication for it

Congratulations. You are selfish.

Don't think you're very strong, that you can "handle" it. You can't, and you're weak. That's how you got sick in the first place.

Don't complain about your sickness to others. Complain it to The Doctor. Sympathy and attention ain't gonna cure any sickness. The Doctor, however, can do something about it.

Don't avoid taking medication, or explicitly exhibit your medical symptoms in class. By then it won't be difficult just for one person, but for hundreds of other students who really wants to hear the lecturer and not your cough/sneeze. It's bad enough that you can't study, don't ruin it for others, they can teach you if they can hear everything.

Don't come into close contact with others. If you don't want to save yourself, fine. But don't go around spreading your germs to hundreds of other people. Because if you really cared about other people, you would want them to stay healthy. It's bloody selfish to let hundreds of other people suffer, just because of one person is just thinking for him/herself only.

Don't go about telling the whole world about it, just to ignore people's advice. Isn't it obvious there? Wasting a few minutes of someone's life while they listen to your complaints, only to reject their conclusions and advises when you are satisfied with the number of germs that have escaped from your mouth. What's your damn point? Oh I know, attention.

And finally, don't go out with very little clothes because everyone knows it's 6'C out there. Summer clothes are best left for summer, and sometimes, your skin is better kept away from direct contact with the wind. Anyone with common sense and functioning receptors would dress appropriately to the temperature. It's either you have no common sense or you asked for it. You asked to get sick.

Call me cruel, call me selfish. Because I am not sympathetic, and going all gushy and "poor you" over the sick person. I don't do it because I believe that is NEVER productive. I am, however, generous with constructive advices and chicken soup =)

I am definitely not snubbing sick people here. As a confession, I am very vulnerable to diseases. For a change, I DO care whether I get sick. That's because when I do get sick, I get it BAD, like REAL BAD even with medication. I'd say at least I'm sensible enough to not put anyone else in the same rotten condition as I am. These are somethings that I never SHARE with friends or family. Simply because I care.

But guess who's more selfish by not considering the benefit of MANY OTHERS.

Disclaimer: Does not apply to people who doesn't fulfill all of the conditions above. If you think I'm talking about you, just think, do you really have this problem? If you do, shame on you.

Thursday, November 13, 2008

Nottingham Malaysian Games 2008

What better way to start the Nottingham Malaysian Games 2008, than in typical Malaysian Fashion?! I slept like a Malaysian, overslept like a Malaysian, and rushed over like a Malaysian to arrive beautifully on Malaysian timing!!!

Perfect =D Lucky for me, I did not have any significant duties in the morning.

But then I crossed paths with The Bouncer in his "Leather" Jacket. Uh-oh...

Big Birds back view look super ganas.
My legs turned into jelly...
A smile and a joke later, I was squrming past the Big Bouncer into the Opening Ceremony!

Got a bird eye's view from above.
At that time, I did feel quite sad that the people had to sit on the floor.
Like kindergarten Story Time like that. Ahah!
Despite the crowd in this shot, the other half of the crowd is actually OUTSIDE this hall.
They were denied entry because they were late.
Come on la, can't blame Malaysians for being Malaysians mah!
In contrast, Very-late-me can go in because I'm The Volunteer with a green shirt.
Man, I love the extra privileges, teeheehee~!

Hand shaking because I came out without breakfast =(
A few shiny looking trophies, the VIPs.
It took FOREVER for the speeches to end, seems that the cold weather won't stop them from berleter-leter panjang lebar.
*I would write this entry in Malay, but my tatabahasa is getting from bad to worse*
*And I know most of us don't miss Malay that much anyway =P *

Emcee, "Please raise your right hand"
Me, "OMG, don't tell me they're gonna do the ikrar behind our little brown exercise books"
Emcee, "Kami berikrar..."
Me, "Aiya, forgot all the lines already!" *Sweating like mad*
Emcee, "...went on with another kind of ikrar..."
It's just doing some sports and exercise, like that also need to ikrar?

Before the Games begin, camwhore a bit first...
SayYuen, Myself, Big Bird The Big Bouncer and Brian Pota-Teo.

I look like I'm cheerleading with 2 x EXTRA LARGE green Pom-Poms.
Big Bird and Kelvin have like giant hands, you can't see my body anymore.

Manja with Daddy How at the Table Tennis room first...
Could I have been *secretly* trying to influence the Table Tennis scores?

... Because my friend YukChang from UCL was competing.
That one on the other side of the table.
His opponent looked so huge and intimidating in comparison.
Now you see him...

And now you don't.
Where did that big guy disappear to?
Poor YukChang continued playing on his own and went on to win this match =D

Finally caught this Long Lost Friend, whom I have not seen since my A'Level days in Taylors College. Only heard him once when he called me from UK when our darling Kimi Raikkonen won the Drivers Championship in 2007!

A box of Krispy Kreme that he bought me =P
Thank you YukChang, you're the best.
And you're in Ling's Book of Records for supplying me my first ever Krispy Kreme!

Met Tad-Song-the-Great.
After a bit of IM-ing a few years back, free-parking on my MSN list for another few years...
I have finally managed to stand in his towering presence. (seriouslyhedamntallidon'twanttostandsonearagain)

Myself, TadSong, YukChang and the famous Michelle Lau.

The Volunteer's Free Lunch as promised by the Nottingham Malaysian Society (NMS).
To be honest, it was no where near free. Had to walk so much and so far for it.
As if that is not enough torture for The-Hungry-Volunteer, have to "Treasure-Hunt" it down some more. This is too much ah! *Saying it like Phua Chu Kang*

The Volunteer was still very hungry, so she went around foraging food from people whom she thinks can lose a few pounds.
Thank you Brian. May God bless you.

Another picture with Big Bird.
I sayang him loads. He so give face, never once shied from my camera. *HUGS*

This picture speaks more than a thousand words for sure!
Brian's ultra rare uncool facial expressive frozen, in this picture, on my blog,

Oh yeah, and then I went to lepak with the Chess Competition fellas after lunch.
Now I realise how interesting it can be watching nerds battling nerds ,
all to be crowned the nerdiest of them all! *Cheers*
Just kidding, I love nerds. What would we do without them.
Check mate, yo!

Okay, so maybe chess can be a wee bit draggy...
So while waiting for the nerd's next big move, we camwhore!
Introducing Shy Lih and Elaine, both live directly underneath my floor.
Eeee... see all my dark eye circles! Gross!

With SiowChin who practically lives next door.
How can she look younger than me T__T

Simon and I look like muka baru kena belasah.
Hahaha. I've got him addicted on my massage now =P

SiowChin and Grace having their "Appetizer" before we start work serving dinner.
With food in their hands, they really can't be bothered with who's capturing their gluttony on camera! Lol. Girls and chocolates. Whatever makes them happy.

Me and my Grace darling with her Million Dollar Smile.

Setting up the VIP's table.
It was then we realised that none of us have pay attention in Kemahiran Hidup.
Pharmacy girls scratching their head, and squeezing brain juice on table arrangements.
Sad case la.

Everybody rejoicing with the arrival of FOOD!!!
FOOD!!! Isn't that what Malaysians are all about?
No? Slap you. Malaysia should disown you.

Us pharmacy girls then have to serve food to everyone.
Green shirt ones get extra drumstick with my compliments! =D

Appetizer: Salad

The crowd favourite of the night: Curry Puffs!
There was this guy, who came back 5-6 times just for the puffs.
And yes, he took the very last one.

Spicy Rice, slightly different from the local Nasi Briyani.

I was the Drumstick and Curry Puff "Guardian".
Serving like a crab like that, a tong in each hand.
Ish, the chicken is like SUPER TASTY!!!
So tasty we EACH secretly tarpao-ed HALF A DOZEN back home to last us the week!
I know, very cheapskate! But lazy to cook ma, plus got plenty of leftovers, don't waste.
Looks like I'll be spending less than 5 pounds again this week =P

Main course: Curry Veggies

Main course: Curry Chicken

Dessert: Halwa
No idea what it really is, but it tastes super duper nice. Sweet potato with butter me thinks.
Makes a lovely warm dessert! Wondering where to find this again in UK.

What's a big meal together without a huge ass...
YUM SENG chant...

My Malaysian buddies. Paris Adventure Gang. Yeah!
Kelvin, SayYuen, Julyan, Myself, Big Bird, Daniel, Simon and Daddy How.
Woohoo, I'm the centre of attention! Perasan-nye saya =P

The family and Little Illegal Me.
Muka tembok go gatecrash people's photo.

And finally, the event was a success because all the hungry volunteers were fed.
The Nottingham Malaysian Society 2008 everybody.
*Cue: Applause*

Thank you.