The dust from my student identity to a working professional has almost settled.
How did I know?
Because I'm waking up at the same time everyday, regardless of the hours I have slept.
Because I'm feeling hungry at my regular breakfast, lunch, and dinner time.
Because I'm doing the same routines over and over again everyday.
Dear Ling, welcome to the world of a working citizen *confetti landing on me*
The monthly pay in to my bank account is probably the only thing that keeps me doing what I do now, with the added promise of a bigger paycheck next summer if I do well. Don't get me wrong, work is going well, very well in fact.
But what is there to do other than work???
So now do I just wake up, turn up for work everyday, and then wait to get paid???
This can't be all there is to life after uni??? Or can it???
I find myself more voracious for new projects, challenges, or even... evil schemes now. Anything to make life exciting again.
A ridiculous bubble of idea popped on me on the bus the other day.
PROJECT ZH'NG MY SELF
Since I'm on hiatus from the dating scene and pretty much away from most of my friends now. Plus there's no one out there which I'm trying to impress right now. It's perfect for some me time. I'm (still) young, and single... why not just spend what's left of my hiatus year with personal grooming?
I'm thinking, a new hair colour, hair style, false lashes, coloured contacts if I can manage, new bimbo wardrobe. And if that all works out I might as well throw in a couple of Wonderbras, LOL.
What's my point, you ask?
My answer is, there's no point! As the years fly by, everything we do has some sort of purpose attached to it, and that's why everything else seems less fun than it was when we were 5 years old. And just maybe, I am just wanting a last bout of fun. Doing something useless (and harmless) for the heck of it. Just because. No buts, no consequences.
I will do it, mind you. When I feel convinced enough that life's not going anywhere, and that I WILL be able to snap out of it when the time comes. Just seems like zh'ng-ing is not something girls these days will be able to stop doing in a snap.